Forever Mine

With whiskey breath and the chill of death
I watched her walk alone
Why was she in this ghastly place,
So far away from home?


Should I go close or keep away
I can't make up my mind
She's so pretty in that flowery dress
This girl who could never be mine


Sometimes I feel I know her well
I've watched her so many times
Through busy streets and narrow lanes
The girl who I wish was mine


She works by the bay in a restaurant
Her shift is till the eve'
I don't go home straight after work
But wait for her to leave


In the shadows of dusk and night
A silhouette am I
As I follow her home every single day
Oh I want her to be mine


But one dark night she strayed from the path
She usually does take
Where was she going? This all must be
A terrible mistake


For the route she took went through a place
With the scum of society
It was dark and filled with shady things
No place for a girl like she


"Go on and help her", said a voice
I had never heard before
"Isn't this the girl you want
To be yours forevermore?"


"Then why so shy? Go on! Go on!
You've no reason to be scared."
"Go grab her by the arm and then
Just get her out of there!"


"But who are you? And why'd you care"
'bout this girl that I adore?"
"I am the devil and I promise you
She'll be with you forevermore"


With such thoughts running through my mind
I quickly ran to her
And grabbed her by the arm and said,
"You must get out of here!"


"Let go of my hand", she cried aloud,
while pushing me away
I tried to make her understand
She had no reason to be afraid


But no! She went on pushing me
And began to make a scene
I tried to stop her gently, but
She then began to scream


On and on, She kept on screaming
Her voice drenched in abject fear
But then devil's voice began to grow
within me e'er more clear


"Just shut her up, or else she'll wake
This stinkin' neighbourhood"
The advice did seem, right at that time,
Quite frankly, pretty good!


And so at first I gently did
With hand over her mouth
Try to stop her screaming and
Calm her panic bout


"I'm only trying to help you",
I whispered in her ear
But all this did was amplify
The fear of me in her


She tried to scream e'en more and so I
cupped my hand more tight
But in awhile she stopped her struggle
And seemed to cease her fight


But when she stopped I noticed that
Her blue eyes were blood-red
Twas then that I did realise
The pretty girl was dead


I backed away with shaking hands
My deed on me did dawn
I'd ended life that was most sweet
The girl I want is gone


"What did you make me do to her?
You seemed so very sure!"
"I only asked you to keep her quiet,
Not suffocate the whore."


"How dare you speak of her in such a way,
She was innocent, you know..."
"Well aren't we all, my guilty friend?
We're puppets in a show!"


The voice that seemed so sure before
Had now abandoned me
How could I be so stupid to even think
She'd listen to me


And so I fled from the dark, stale place
Pictures flashing through my mind
Of how I plucked a bloss'ming flow'r
The girl who I wished was mine


I could not sleep, I could not eat
Throughout that fateful night
Her scream, her eyes, her cold limp hands
Were scorched into my mind


Among the 'papers, news and authorities
A furore it did draw
It wasn't long before they were at
The guilty person's door


A speedy trial was set in place
I sat in chains throughout
The prosecution told of what I'd done
And the jury had no doubt


"The devil told me to do it", I cried
Why do they think I lie?
They shook their heads and sneered at me
"This man deserves to die!"


The courtroom echoed with the sound
The judge's gavel made
My hopes of an acquittal then,
Like dusk, began to fade


"Your Honour, it's all a big mistake
Don't you see I'm just a pawn?"
"Get this fellow out of here. Make sure
he's dead before it's dawn."


With no further questioning
Hand-cuffed, I was led from court
The state's reward for the deed I'd done
For the life I had cut short


How hard it is to face your life
In a retrospective glance
When you're sleeping in a holding cell
And you know this night's your last


But face I must, and face I do
When I think back regretfully
To the night that ended the lives of two
And the voice that's abandoned me


Then just before the dawn I hear
A cackling, evil laugh
The voice is back to tell me that
My time is up at last


"I tried to help you stop her screams
'cause you wanted to help her."
"But little did I know that you
Are a filthy murderer!"


This was more than I could take
Such malevolent stuff
Minutes like an eternity
Death couldn't come soon enough


And as I descended down into
Self-loathing for my wrongs
The jailer came to tell me that
My execution won't be long


'cuffed again, I left my cell
I'd given up the fight
"Dead man walking", yelled the guard
The end was now in sight


My earthly life was ended, much
Before I'd lived my time
I'd reaped what I myself had sowed
Punishment befitting crime


But this is not the end, you know
Atheists must read and weep
There is a world beyond our own
Of heaven and the deep


I'm cast into the place well known
Where countless fires burn
A land of darkness and most def'nit'ly
From which I cannot return


And now as I burn in the Lake of Fire
Too real to be a dream
Amidst the weeping, gnashing teeth
I hear a familiar scream


As I look 'round I see her face
The victim of my crime
I can't believe - The voice was right!
She is forever mine

 - Tim David

Haiku (2005)

Little boy is dead
Flowers are placed at his grave
They won't bring him back

Who's To Blame?

With a breath of the heavens
Twilight bleeds across the sky
The sky, though wounded, spins on
The stars shine on high
The street-lights of the sky
No more in the shadow of our nearest one

The rain has ceased
But the skies aren't clear
It takes time for everything to heal
The day's like night
And it seems so long
It makes it harder for us to feel

There is no gain without pain
And man celebrates his progress
With spiritual regression
When bigotry and vengeance live on,
We must bear our consequential suffering
Then why is it God we question?

 - Tim David

Love's Slave

He was the greatest friend to have
Someone who'd never let you down
But now you wonder why he acts so strange
And he's had a complete turn-around

It was two years since they first went out
And now on the beach where the waves rolled in
She said she'd found someone new
She turned her back on him

He was always there for her
Never let her down
He gave her all he could
And that's what tears him now

All the questions he asked that night
She just would not answer
And as realisation hit him
He knew he had to look to the future

But losing love isn't that easy
As he found out so well
Every thought of her brought a tear
And turned his life into a living hell

Tell me where was reason in what she did?
No thought of how much he gave
In fact what he had wasn't love
He was just love's slave

And through the months the agony piled on
As he tried to see what he did wrong
While she's out with new love that she thinks is better
But she's got it wrong, 'cause she's fallen for a player

Time doesn't heal
It's just that memories fade
And the once awesome couple
Drifts further away

But when she's been played
And she realises what she's done
She'll come back crying
She'll come back like scum

But now he's grown
And the kind boy has turned sore
And no matter how much she begs
He'll continue to ignore

Her tears don't melt his heart of stone
And his mind drifts away to the recent past
When he cried each night for the love he lost
When he thought each night would be his last

And now as he sits on the beach again
This time alone, sore and scarred
His heart is as cold as the midnight breeze
His heart is ever so hard

For now he looks at love as a curse
A curse that made him new
Be careful when choosing your love
For someday this boy could be you.

 - Tim David

Life

In the morning light of life,
A man's dream for his child...
That before he goes,
He would taste of the enchantment of life.
But at the end of many a season,
To have...to hold
To love...to give
Wrinkles in the mirror,
Siesta's getting longer,
A faint whisper in the dark,
The memories of a life well lived,
Are all the child has...
And it takes only a moment
For that last breath,
As another forgotten life is lived

- Tim David